we're all seeking something. this is my heart.

wow.

josef jensen — Wed, 02 Mar 2011 02:58:02 +0000

the last post on here is crazy.

let’s start fresh. its march. my roommate charles challenged me to better myself this month by adding something to, and subtracting something from my daily routine. I’m subtracting cigarettes. I really have no choice, doctor’s orders have been ignored and i think his accountability might help jumpstart my quitting.

so if im taking cigarettes out(although i’m allowed 2 a week to avoid simply giving up) what am i adding? well here’s the blog. I’m adding a daily time of spiritual devotion. whether that means bible reading. silent meditation. going to church. or simply writing, every day this month I intend to spend at least 30 minutes pursuing the spiritual.

in addition to that i plan on making myself do something active three days a week. gym. park. run. kinect workout. whatever. and no fastfood or soda all month. damn. thats a lot. i did a similar thing last year for lent, i think i might extend these promises to cover all of lent because it was the most productive part of the last 12 months for me.

in addition to this stuff im also working on music with my friend jesse, continuing to play with my band, and working on launching an internet magazine/community. the last part is as hard as it sounds and i refuse to idealize the process. it will take a tremendous amount of effort and be a huge pain in the ass. but i think it would be nice to finally do something that i can look at and be proud of. its time to reach my potential. or at least attempt to.

anyway. onto my devotion.

i have.

josef jensen — Wed, 08 Sep 2010 05:21:10 +0000

a serious problem understanding this.

mostly you seem like a bitch.

after all this shit. you can’t just come to bed. after the last fucking time this happened, your willing to do the same GOD DAMNED thing.

i feel so fucking dumb.

a new adventure.

josef jensen — Wed, 18 Aug 2010 03:06:30 +0000

is on the horizon. 9 months until i set out on what may very well be the greatest chapter of my life.

in the mean time there is a lot to do. somewhat monotonously, but worthwhile and necessary.

1. pay off debt.

2. save a ton of cash.

3. get in shape.

i update facebook statuses in the most nauseating way possible.

josef jensen — Wed, 18 Aug 2010 03:05:07 +0000

Joseph Jensen Mauer when i think about all of the amazing experiences ive had. that we’ve shared. all the friends dispersed across different maps of different states and countries. the shows. the songs. the car rides. the cigarettes. the drinks. laughter. ridiculous situations. embarrassing pictures. church.school.college.camp.events its …

im tired.

josef jensen — Sat, 27 Mar 2010 13:09:49 +0000

and kind of stressed. back from vacation and so much going on. i’m trying to remain positive and in good standing with my god. i’m looking forward to a day to actually sleep in, and to learning the music im supposed to. i think i’m gonna stay in jersey for awhile longer, maybe a year or more, who knows. promotion is coming, possibly good money, found a place to live, playing a lot of music. why not grow here?

tough choices.

josef jensen — Wed, 24 Mar 2010 07:19:33 +0000

between friends. and music. would i want to do it. yes. do i want to do it if it’s going to hurt my friendship with party A. no. is it important to me to help out party b. yes. would i do it if i wasn’t friends with a or b, yes. so thats essentially the conversation i need to have with party A. hopefully he’ll understand. also. i don’t blog here as much because i’ve been posting at leftonedeafone.com, this particular blog will be reserved for more private thoughts, whereas the other is being promoted to friends, family, and strangers alike.

titus.

josef jensen — Sun, 14 Mar 2010 16:25:22 +0000

everything is pure to those whose hearts are pure. but nothing is pure to those who are corrupt and unbelieving, because their minds and consciences are corrupt. 1:15

in the same way encourage the young men to live wisely, and you yourself must be an example to them by doing good works of every kind. let everything you do reflect the integrity and seriousness of your teaching. 2:6

our people must learn to do good by meeting the urgent needs of others, then they will not be unproductive. 3:14

a quick minute.

josef jensen — Sun, 14 Mar 2010 14:25:44 +0000

last night. i messed up my diet again. its the smoking. i get high, and then eat through everything… its horrible. still, the only thing to do today is pick up where i was before and keep doing what i’ve been doing. it’s going to be a horribly busy day and i really wish i didn’t have to work. the coffee is brewing and the water is boiling, time for breakfast.

im working on my internet empire.

josef jensen — Sat, 13 Mar 2010 13:49:33 +0000

or at least killing some time productively… or semi-productively.

theleftoneisthedeafone.com = my music

leftonedeafone= my new public blog.

i don’t want to lose track of this, but i feel like im going to be writing more in the other one… possibly not though, cause that is less of a blog and more of a media/art/thought outlet… more of a place for finished product, whereas this is still my drawing and sounding board.

i’m gonna be late for the gym tho if i don’t get moving.

fighting the funk.

josef jensen — Fri, 12 Mar 2010 02:43:33 +0000

today was almost an extremely good day, except i didn’t like the way the song came out. i need to redo the vocals and tone down some of the other aspects of it instrumentally… it stresses me out that i worked on it for about 5 hours and didnt get it to where i wanted it. that and almost being late to the doctor and now having to take more pills. it just sucks. im skipping bar A tonight and the new volume show. im too tired. waking up early for the hike today was great but i didnt get enough sleep. the morning walk about had me feeling good though, energetic, healtthy. i was excited for it and the weather was great. i even managed to run up the steep cutback midway through the hike. today i weigh less than i did yesterday, and probably the least i have since freshman year of highschool… crazy. im bummed out that it doesnt look like there will be any progress with my ear, but im also excited about the other areas of my life im working on. tonight i have to do my bible reading, i really need to make sure i do it in the morning. i think it helps me center more effectively.